part three-sepet!

Let me tell ya something about my addiction to sepet guys.....they can be chinese/korean or even japanese...or malay guys who happen hv the same attributes...gosh, gosh, gosh n gosh...there are no other words to express how i feel about them....and i was in a few relationships with at least 5 chinese guys but as usual, my mom would neva eva appeared to like my choices...from kenneth low, matthew, patrick, michael ong to lee(wateves...i ve forgotten his name).....she would neva eva said yess....i wondered y......yeah..rite...my mom asked me for a typical malay guy who is accustomed to malay custom....BORING......but y chinese n sepet guys......????? There is no issue abt it becoz I used to pretend like a chinese aka sepet gurl too (berangan all the time)...tis picture (on the right side) was taken when i was doing my BBA in multimedia management in MMU....so perasan nak jadi cina...but watta heck...i'd admirers frm the chinese students...kakakakak...the males la...not females....(giler ke...)kakaka

Back to the story again...I like them (the sepet guys) since i was a kid....i used to watch...police academy...acted by tony leong chew wai..then alan tam, leslie cheung, aaron kwok...etc...the lists went on n on until the korean hit drama, winter sonata.....and japanese dramas, the beach boys, long vacation then rain...then...n then...n then......OMG!!!....am i being cursed???? It's only natural. . . Not that there aren't hundreds of thousands of handsome, charming and successful Malay men who, by all rights, should be attractive to me. But i would take extraordinary consideration, some special X factor, the sepetness n the way they think.....wow!!!especially...most of them spoke english very well.....soooooo sexy...kakakak...after my mom disapproved all the chinese guys tht i introduced to her....i began reluctant to go on dating....i was like focusing on other stuffs such as my career n my hobbies......until i found ...err...met him n him n lastly him......jengjengjeng....

part two-the beginning of my love chapter

Gosh...let's turn back to my life before am getting serious in lovey duvey thingy....i just wanna share with u guys how did i find my very true love....even though it was just taken away frm me in a short period of time.....should i confess????just listen....n read if u're interested..if u're not...can i help you?naah..

The gym....is actually a really meaningful place to me.it builds up my confidence, get me lose my weighs...get me into a very appealing lady....(hahahah...perasan)...everything is about my gym....the gym is always flooded with peeps...i like tht....(ya bet ya know y)....haaha...

actually....the gym really pulled me to seek for lovers...the potential ones...hahahah..(watta pathetic)....arghhh....x kesah lar...Sometimes, when i sat alone i would just think could it be appeared that i fall for someone who is not my interest at all....or vice versa....ARghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I FELT SO UNSURE.....SOOOOO INSECURE.....

part one-hate love

Love, that's the word i hated so much....not because ive been hurt before, it's just that i never had a chance to allow myself to get involve seriously in any love situation....hahahah....i dunno why the curse is with me....not that i dun believe in love but man to woman sort of relationships made me wanna to be seven foot underground......hahaha

Well....ya...honestly...ive been hurt before...or should i say...being dumped....sheeish....i hate the sound of being dumped....make me sooooo uselesss....I tried so many ways to avoid human contact especially guys, get dunk with my overload work-everything changes when i meet the social network.....mr FB....watelse...the most talking application on the net...nowadays.....even my mom had an FB account......wat is FB?do i need to explain.....?naah...i dun think so...social network means brouht u the social sort of meeting with frenz.....old ,new....doesn't make any difference as long as it involves in communication..in fact one way communication...hahaha

let's cut the crap.....back to the idea of love.......i lead a very happy life, a person with great sense of humour love to be around with my family...i was like...it so safe and comfortable to be around with them especially my mom.....so....after all the breaking hearts thingy....i never had a desire to fall deeply in lurve with other guys.....i said....by all means....it sucks.....the relationship......i guess.....